Sure, it could be the fact that I've been in a manic phase of my bipolar disorder, and I'm sure that's got something to do with it. But I've been taking classes that I actually want to take and that I'm actually excited about for the first time in a while. Except literature. Fuck that class.
But my whole attitude is different. I'm a psychology major, dammit, and I want to be! I'm not just bumbling around in biology land just because I had always expected to be there my entire life anymore; I'm somewhere that is actually making my happy. I find something enjoyable in every class, even the statistics-based ones. I'm not procrastinating on assignments, waiting until the hour before it's due before thinking about getting started. I'm actually getting involved in school events: I joined the Judo club (also I'm taking Judo as a class with my friend Matt, and I love it), I'm gonna join the Senate, and I'm making an effort to not talk shit about my own school anymore. Norfolk is still on its own, though.
I have pretty much hated school thus far. I'm changing that. I'm not gonna be sitting in my room on the Internet anymore. I have been actually talking to people in my classes, making friends. I have been cooking, hanging out with people, going to bed early so I can wake up on time, and just been really working on myself. I also quit smoking weed for good in early December. I'm happy to say I don't miss it. I'll probably discuss what caused that decision to come about in a later post, although I think I told the people that actually read this thing. But it's nice to chronicle it.
I went off on a bit of a tangent there. I've been teaching myself to realize that school, and more importantly life, is what you make of it. And I'm trying my damnedest to make it the best I can. I know it won't be perfect, but I can't fault myself for sitting on my ass anymore.
Yeah, same with me being a bio major. I was just kinda there, then suddenly art history! Glad you find your nice.
ReplyDeleteBut Judo, Jew though? XD
I call it Jewdo sometimes :p. I'm really glad as well. I just spoke with my abnormal psychology professor about some of this stuff today and it was nice. She gave me some good advice. THERE ARE SO MANY OPTIONS.
DeleteThis is awesome to hear! I'm proud of you Dan! I could probably use some of this motivation with my school life because I'm never very motivated to make friends, meet new people, and what not. Maybe you can be my socialization muse.
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Thanks! I'm proud of me, too! The trick is to take out headphones :p. The easiest time is during the beginning of the year, before people have fallen into their routines. Also: MUSE. LOL.
DeleteAlso, I'm trying to find a place where I can post links to other blogs/websites (like you have on yours) so I can share your kick-ass blog, but I don't know how to set that up on Blogger. Herp-a-derp.
The user interface for Blogger sucks. This is why I eventually switched over to wordpress.
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